I don't think anyone was more excited about this year to end then me! This year has been a roller coaster ride from beginning to end, and I'm glad it's over! I've found my peace of mind and am glad to have moved on.
It's always hard to loose people in your lives, especially when you see that the sky is the limit. I've learned and admitted to my imperfections, and I've dealt with them the best way I know how. I know I've hurt people along the way, but I will stick to this till the day I die...Don't judge me, unless you've never lied, cheated, or done anything wrong. I've done everything I could, to ask for forgiveness and reconcile any differences. It's unfortunate that some cannot grasp the notion of maturity and learn to forgive. In the midst of all this, I learned something truly important. I needed to be forgiven to receive the closure I deserved. Then I realized that I have forgiven myself and my true friends have forgiven me and that is all I needed. This weight of guilt has left my shoulders and now I'm standing tall.
I have worked my butt off to change certain things about me. I see myself not getting so uptight about the smallest details in my life. I've loosened up and taken life as a gift worth spending every moment in happiness. I've given more of myself these past 6 months to my friends, family, and work. I want to nourish what is important in my life so that I can have a smile on my face everyday. I'm not taking anything for granted this year, and the second part of 2010 has helped me put my life back together.
Work has been the biggest challenge in my life this year because this is the path to my future. I have learned to take all my actions seriously, hoping this will lead me to better opportunities down the road. Some days are great and I thank all my coworkers who have helped me along the way and have taught me to grow. Other days are not so good, which makes me want to just quit and find another job. I guess the direction I take this upcoming year will test my motivation and integrity. I'm a bit excited to see if any new doors open for me!!!
Family, we are all grown! I reminisce all the times we played in the yard together with our neighbors, and now we all live separate lives. My parents did a great job with all three of us, and I am glad we can all still come together once in a while and have a true family dinner. Lots of laughter and smiles from those I love the most. Friends will come and go, but my family has seen me at my lowest and will be there to experience my highest!
Friends.... or my second family. In the midst of picking myself up this year from a big lost, I do have to extend my appreciation to three people who either listened to me, fought for me, and just stood by me. Jeffrey, there is a long road ahead of us, I love you dearly and thank you for never letting go. Michelle, the close relationship we once had was definitely rekindled this year, so this has been a great blessing in disguise. You are my best friend and thank you for always being there for me, being ready for battle!! I do not know how I could have survived this year with out. Out with the old, and in with the ... OLDEST! Jackie, thank you for always sticking up for me and making me ten times stronger than I was. Thank you for teaching me how to care about me, and to cut my loses especially if it's not worth it. I love you with all my heart!
I've rekindled a lot of my relationships with people I've known since high school (10 years!!) and elementary school (18 years!!). Oh how I've missed those people in my life, and this year I'm not going to miss out! I guess in my case as much as I've lost people in my life, those that have known me a lifetime have found their way back into mine!
It wouldn't feel right if I didn't mention those friends I've disconnected with this year. We spent a lot of years together, and I'm sorry things ended the way it did. I am hopeful down the road that we can all be civilized. I'm not going to lie, I am not holding my breath on that. All I wish is that all of you live amazing successful lives with those that love you. I wish you the best in 2011.
As for me, the world better be ready. As I reach my 25th year of living this June, I am prepared and ready for everything 2011 has to offer. This time around, I'm not waiting, I am making things happen.
I know what I've worked hard on and I know what I deserve, and this year, I am not settling for anything less.
C'ya 2010!!!!!
1 comment:
here's to being grown and growing up :)
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