Tougher Skin

I forgot how pleasant it was to confide in someone. It's been a while since I have and it was liberating to get things off my chest and at the same time hear a perspective other than mine. I've turned over a new leaf since graduating from college and I'm accustomed to dealing with situations a certain way. My eyes have now been opened to something new and different and is quite a ways from my comfort zone. I've never believed in letting go or giving up on any type of relationship I've ever had with people in my life. I've been cheated on, lied to, taken advantage of, talked about, ridiculed, and hurt. I've chosen the road less taken and not walked away, hoping the very foundations of the friendship we once had was enough to overcome this bump on the road. I've set aside all the negativity and chose to forgive. I am privileged to have my sins forgiven by God, why can't I do the same for others? When I look back, if I had not given our friendship a chance, there would be none. It's been years since then and our friendship could not have been better. I belieive the choice I am struggling with now is how to deal it again? A good friend said sometimes the best solution is to let go. In the occurrence that the other person has already given up and let go, why still try? In my heart, I want to believe that our friendship was real, but I guess not real enough to make any amends necessary. In all actuality I just wanted to be informed of what was going to happen and how I was going to be treated, instead of being left out in the cold wondering aimlessly thinking everything is okay. A simple, "Hey Ang, we need to talk" or "I just need time to myself" is enough to understand the very means of ones actions. One thing that made sense to me after my conversation with my friend is the last thing that was said to me, "You've chosen in the past to not let go of friendships, regardless of everything you went through. You've kept everything inside you just to keep the friendship alive, even when the other person didn't want a friendship from you. In return, this has made you vulnerable and emotional. Maybe this time around, you can just walk away from the situation and "look" for closure within yourself and not from others."

.... should I take this advice? Or keep taking the road less taken and believe everything will go back to normal. If or when it does, do I just let go of everything I've been through and start new? Oh the struggles life brings us...... for now one prayer a day is enough to let me know I'm loved.