Phew ~ Glad to let it out

I’ve been to hell and back the last two months, trying to move on. I’ve progressed so much by making decisions in life, I thought was for the better. I left a team that I once bent over backwards for, to start a new chapter in my life, I also dropped anything and anyone that has built drama on my expense. As I saw myself walking away from all this, I saw new drama approaching ahead. I realized that I can stand there and do absolutely nothing and drama still has the power to wreck my life. I’ve been talked about carelessly without anyone questioning me for my own opinion. I’ve been accused based on assumptions and not facts. I’ve been gossiped about by my “close friends” not knowing that I hear everything. I’ve kept my life private because I’ve always believed its no one else’s business but mine. I take privacy very seriously and I’ve had none the last two months. I’ve kept myself busy worrying about everyone else but myself, thinking my own problems would just go away…..

So for the record…..
Yes, I am sad. Yes, I am alone. Yes, I am weak
Yes, I need a shoulder to cry on. Yes, I need a hand to hold on to.
Yes, I am confused. Yes, I want to hold on. Yes, I’ve tried to change.
Yes, I want things to go back to how they were. Yes, I want my friends back.
Yes, I want the gossip to stop. Yes, I want to be respected.
Yes, I was willing to give up anything and anyone that got in the way.
Yes, you were it for me. Yes, my life sucks right now.
Yes, my heart is broken. Yes, I want to run away.
Yes, I’m trying to be strong and independent as I once was.
Yes, I’ve spent the last year contemplating on and off if this was all worth it.
But…..

No, it’s not over. No, I never stopped loving you.
No, I never wanted to give up. No, I never stopped caring.
No, I never put you less of a priority other than first.
No, you did not want the same
And No, I wasn’t the one that broke it off……

So for once please leave us be. Let us live our lives the way we want to live it. Give us the privacy we deserve and know that we will be okay. We need time to do our own thing and be independent from each other. We need time to hopefully fall in love again. We need time to figure out why we are meant to be…..

This fairy tale of ours was 3 years in the making; it’s simply in hiatus until further notice, but please don’t let this happily ever after ending turn into a tragedy.